Archive for September, 2010

Self Mastery in 21 Days

Is it possible to achieve self-mastery in 21 days?

I believe it is not only possible, I am certain that each one of us can change our minds about anything, with intention and singular focus. Whether it’s mastery over a substance addiction, weight loss, or a more deeply imbedded and complicated emotional complex with the related physical issues, something in me knows it is all possible.

Because we humans are thinkers and often quite reactive to our past time experiences, everything we are or do in this very moment, physically, mentally and emotionally, is based on thoughts related to life experiences. In fact, most everything we think about in present time was probably hardwired into our brains long before we reached age seven. Over the years, these thoughts have evolved into the beliefs that we project out into the world every day.

Those beliefs are as real as our bones, as real as the houses we live in and as real as the roads on which we drive our sturdy metal cars. Now if you know about energy, you also know that our beliefs create even more experiences to substantiate themselves, supporting the only reality we know and probably the one we dislike. This phenomenon is both our morphogenic field and our safety zone no matter how disgruntled about our creations we may be!

Tomorrow, on October 1, 2010, and for the next 21 days, I will shift my behavior and my belief about how the outside world is my enemy. By simply setting the intention, I’ve already begun to call in opportunities and experiences that ultimately help me in achieving my goal of freedom from that particular fear and the burdensome, protective behaviors I create as a result of my belief.

I love to set goals coupled with spiritual intentions, yet this one is very specific and rubs up against the tap root of my life-long nemesis: fear of being annihilated, and its flip-side, my own annihilating defensive actions. Everything else stems from or revolves around this mind-set. It could well be the moment I engage in fighting “the good fight” of my life.

Right now my palms are sweaty, my gut is in a knot, my skin is tingling as though I’m really not here, and I am feeling a deep, uncontrollable bone level vibration. My eyesight is dim and narrow in this moment because a lot of my energy is hovering above my head like a low-lying cloud heavy with rain. Even in writing this, I am suddenly filled with grief. What am I losing with this intention; what will I actually gain? Answers will come along the way, no doubt, and I’ll let you know each day what I experience and learn.

As a willful control freak, I’m sure these responses are present because I’ve got no idea how it will unfold. I can see the result, the end point, yet I am blind to the steps and terrain along the way. Sure, I could ask Jesus, Mary Magdalene, God and the Universe for ease as I erase this useless script I wrote long ago, and I definitely will. In addition, I will ask for witnesses. And because of the nature of this intention, I will soon see just how un-accepting and resistant I am to the next step in my growth!

With that said, one of the most important things I want to keep in view during this time is the double edged sword of distraction. It’s so easy to become distracted by other more mundane tasks in the heat of an existentially crazy moment, avoiding the feelings it presents, and yet it’s just as easy to become distracted by and entrenched in the emotional scene itself! Both identities are dead end streets.

I feel apprehensive and lonely, as though I’m going to sail around the world solo, through all the heavy foreign seas and high winds, fending for myself in incredible turbulence. Worse for me may be the lulls and doldrums; even the thought quickly becomes a frightening prophecy.

Well, bon voyage everyone. Here’s to my journey! I’ll see you back here tomorrow as I sail across the cosmic seas, into the wind against the chop, into the West.

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The Muse of Fall Equinox: Travels on the Cosmic Seas

Rhythms of the Elemental Energies

As the wheel of the year turns westward toward the setting sun over the cosmic sea, our soul’s journey or “anam turas,” turns west as well, making its way toward TirNaNog, the magical place of youth that lies beyond our earthly sight, deep in the heather of another world.

Fall Equinox, the time starting at the end of September through Halloween, is the end, the final place on the Wheel before life’s re-inception. It is a visionary time during which we prepare for the final harvest, reigniting our commitment to the cosmic plan and our search for the mysteries of the Universe inside us.

In autumn we stand on the first steps, barely opening the gate to a temporary resting place after an abundant growing season, making our way inward and downward. Like Inanna, we will soon prepare and embrace the presence of our personal winter, relishing the darkness until the light shines bright again.

Beginning at the western balance point of equal dark and equal light, we honor the Earth as she harvests apples, nuts and grains for the last quarter of our annual journey. Before our departure, we share our abundance with deep gratitude for the community, our soul friends and their wisdom. We sing our good-byes to the extroverted and transformational fires of summer while dancing together over a light speckled sea. And then we begin the slow turn inward, curling and cuddling into a place of our own, all alone.

Now, while we celebrate, the graying Mother empties her nest and gives way to the crone in perfect time with the green leaves making way for the deeper more mature colors of autumn. We no longer dance on the slick and shiny surfaces, instead allowing ourselves to be absorbed back into the hues of gold, orange, red and brown as the leaves fall quietly from their branches, soon crumbling beneath our feet. From our vantage point in the sunlight above we give way to the land below, burying ourselves in the soils of curiosity and courage.
Here we dive, sliding into our earthly womb on the element of the water that cleanses as we surrender to its currents, its turns and flows. Water transports us toward our destination at the single point of oneness and global awareness. Water speaks to water across the horizon and we soak in the fluids of its essence, taking small bites of earthly knowledge from the apples to open our hearts and minds along the way. Apples and cool river waters guide us, alchemizing knowledge into wisdom as we move slowly into the shadows.

Celebrate! You have successfully turned the Wheel of the Year once again and are ready for the wisdom of your ancestors, returning to the womb for healing and rebirth. Honor the seeds you planted long ago; love the sproutlings that grew into flowers, vegetables, nuts, fruits, and grains; for now you are prepared and abundant as you give way to your evolution, turning yourself into ashes to fertilize the ground for the seeds of the new year.

Goddesses of the Autumnal Equinox

Each geographical region has its own elemental correspondences to the directions and seasons, though underlying all elements is that of the Earth at the harvest, abundant supplies, and gifts from the Mother. In the Isles of Brigid, autumn is symbolic of the earth element emerging from the water of summer, and the crone emerging from the Mother.

Ertha and Gaia are manifestations of the autumnal equinox, though the symbolic Triple-Mother Goddess, Eiru, is best known in the Isles as a real world representative and cosmic metaphor of fertility and sovereignty. She lives in the land of women; she is the Mother of matter and performs the cleansing of Earth each year for the next planting.

Eiru, along with Fodha and Banba, protects the land, evokes dedication, devotion and commitment in the people that walk on her surface. She gives us life and preserves us in the face of danger and destruction, famine and misfortune. She is the mother, coming from the maiden and giving way to the crone, who is at the root of all autumnal harvest festivals.

We call on you Eiru for guidance and balance, for clarity and resolve. We thank and honor you for lighting the way into ourselves and for lighting the way outward again. Blessed are we who know you; blessed are we who honor the cycles you create for us along the spiraling path to awaken our souls. It is a route well trodden, so we fear not for our lives, making way for learning, remembering, and true focus for our intentions as ever-evolving souls.

Without your benchmarks, our sovereignty is unanchored and we fly untethered into the abyss of the ethers. Instead we spend our time growing, realizing and expressing. Thank you for the arms of compassion you wrap around us, and for your elemental reflections that help to remind us of who we really are as spirits embodied.

Prayer of Gratitude

Manifesting abundance and havingness is our inherent human right and creative power. We often desire and yet cannot create what we want because we remain separate from our nature, avoiding responsibility and risk. By praying as if you already have what you want, focusing on the end point in gratitude, you will move yourself out of hopelessness toward full enlightenment.

-Stand or sit comfortably with your feet on the ground, your eyes are closed.

-Visualize a grounding connection from the root chakra into the center of the earth. Sit for a moment and breath, releasing stagnant energies into the earth’s core.

-Allow earth energy to enter the bottom of your feet, moving into your lower body. Breathe and circulate the earth energy.

-Feel the cosmic energy as it moves into your crown chakra through your body to meet and mix with the earth energies.

-Breathe in and breathe out. Feel the earth and cosmic energies flowing through your body, opening the doors of knowledge and awareness, eliciting conversations with the God and Goddess of your heart.

-Envision what you want in present time. Observe and ground this vision.

-Create a symbol that represents what you are already manifesting. Allow your vision to flow into the symbol.

-Breathe into your heart, filling it with gratitude for what you have, what you want and what you are creating. Breathe from your heart out into your symbol, into the world, into the Universal flows where your vision will manifest.

-Release your vision to the Cosmos; trust that sending it away will allow it to manifest in your personal dimension and reality.

The information here has been compiled from various personal experiences as well as teachings and information from Kathy Jones’ book “Priestess of Avalon, Priestess of the Goddess,” Mara Freeman’s book, “Kindling the Celtic Spirit,” and Frank MacEowen’s book, “The Celtic Way of Seeing.”

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Inner Journey: Mysteries of Physiology

A few months ago I visited my brain during a core shamanic journey. While in there, I was guided to “just experience” the waves of electric blue energy pulsating from the center of my head out into the rest of my body, through all the physical and subtle energy channels inside me, and in between the layers of my aura.

It felt a lot like lying in the surf line in the warm summer waters of Hawaii, looking up at the starry night sky with a huge Full Moon hovering over the crest of the waves. Floating effortlessly, allowing the tide to pull me in and out, gently rocked, surrendering to a greater rhythm, it was truly an unknown source of connection.

Existential, though not a delusional moment. Not a tangent, nor a hijacking of my consciousness, instead, it was a super-conscious moment. I remembered the feeling intimately, though I remained lost in the shadows of the unknown in spite of my common experiences.

I could make up that I knew what this connection was because I’d read a lot of philosophers, taken a lot of yoga, and I’ve spent much time with many different spiritual teachers and mentors. I could tell you I’ve studied the discourses, intellectually, and have even had a few real life experiences of this unknown source. Even so, it’s still unknown at it’s essence, and may remain at that distance forever and ever. I just don’t know, though it doesn’t stop me from talking about it!

Curiosity is my constant companion so my questions breed interesting thoughts, experiences and states of being.

Back on that day, I was floating along on the inner indigo sea and my mind wanted to know the source of this phenomenon and my connection to it, both inside my body and outside in the Universe. “Where is God?,” my mind kept asking this over and over. Those thoughts were disruptive and a little distracting, yet I could still subtly feel the ease and the experience of that unknown blue expanse.

As seems to be the norm during journeys, I had also received a message which is often visual, sometimes audible, and all the time a sensory thing. I felt it on my neck, twitching as though a baby daddy long-leg bug was wandering happily and carelessly over the surface of my skin. Brushing it away to awaken myself, I immediately wanted to go back in there again, to build on that sensational mini-burst again.

Somehow I knew the flinching and twitching marked the beginning of the reformation of my neural network, in it’s earliest glitchiest stage. Addicted to all things mentally expansive, this mind of mine was being restructured into something more balanced with heart. I breathed into my chest to feel how real it was.

Pretty real, I’d say.

It’s been a long time coming, this heart evolution, and my new adventures seem to be so much more subtle than anything I’ve experienced thus far, even energetically over the years. Every tool I’ve used to lull myself into what I thought was “this place,” had basically and only been a stepping stone into greater levels of the deep blue sea inside me. This sweet moment in time will expand, as certainly as I can muster the patience and trust for its gestation. More sensitivity; more heart. I do know that.

And even though this journey was primarily sensate and visual, I often receive verbal sentences and instruction as well. That day my guide told me my “phrenic nerve was impinged.” Physiologically, this very crucial nerve connects, and communicates between, the brainstem and heart, the brainstem and diaphragm.

A narrow information highway, it passes through the bossy support muscles in the front of the neck, under the collarbone, almost piggy-backing with the afferent and efferent tides of the rivers and streams running red with life. It makes its way into the thoracic cavity where the central pump automatically regulates both blood and its breathy sibling, without thought or even intention. The energetic signature and matching components integrate in a complex circuitry to distribute the purest gold of chi and related life force energies.

Chicken or egg? Heart or mind? I don’t really know what comes first, what is most important, or how they are balanced. And as much as my mind would love to linger on the possibilities, the science and interrelatedness of it all, my soul doesn’t really want to spend the time “figuring it out” any further; not now anyway. One day it will simply come to me in a picture or an epiphany; the soft message of my inner voice transmitting a hello from God and the heavens above.

“Just experience the deep blue sea inside of you,” that’s what my guide said to me at the end, right before I floated up from below, through the roots of Methuselah into the shimmering, diamond light fragments peaking through a kaleidoscope of branches, always touching the sky above me.